Greatest is LOVE!

( What's been going on with me? )

This is going to be another post about me bitching about my mom, so if you don't want to read that just skip over it.

Last Friday, when I was sick, I got a call from my sister asking me to baby-sit my nephew. Well, my hubby was baby-sitting, I was tying not to get him sick. Come to find out she had to leave work that afternoon because she got a call from a friend of my dad. He had went out to the house to get something for him and the landlords were going through the house and throwing things in to garbage bags. Apparently my mom has not spoken to them sense, um, October. She had paid rent through the end of December, but told them that everything would be out by the first of December. WTF???? The sale was not even until the 2nd week in December. I don't even want to think about that cluster fuck. When my sister called mom to tell her what was going on mom told her to handle it. Fucking Bitch! This is her house, her things, her family heirlooms, and she doesn't seem to give a shit. It is not Holly's job. She is a single mom. She works up to 50 hours a week, and still has to find time to spend time with her son. I am so pissed off at her right now. She never goes to see Dad, Holly does. Holly buys more things for Dad than she does. I HATE her boyfriend. He has a reputation of being abusive. She never wants to spend time with any of us. I really can't remember the last time she did anything with me that didn't have to do with family stuff. We use to be close, and I miss that. I was talking to a girl at work about it and I broke down into tears. God, sometimes I hate her, but I still love her. I spent an hour talking to my sister in Chicago about how much we both miss are mom. We were the mommy's girls. I think that we both feel a little adrift with out her. It kills me that she doesn't want to spent time with my son. She spends her weekends drinking. She use to care about what is going on in our lives. On my birthday she called to wish me a happy birthday. Not only did she wake me up, but she didn't even have any thing to say. She talked about the weather, the fucking weather. I felt like a got a better Happy Birthday from my friends list, and she is my mother. I don't know what to do. I mean how do you tell your mother that you think she is a drunken, whore, bitch, and that she needs to grow up and act her age. One of my sisters wants to write her an e-mail, but is afraid that it is to impersonal. My normal way of dealing with things like this is to ignore it until it goes away, but I don't see that happening any time soon.

I just wanted to pop in and say hi. Things have been kind of crazy around here. I have been spending all of my free time helping my sister get her place ready to host Christmas for the family.

I want to say thank you for all of the Christmas cards I have gotten! They have really made my holiday brighter. Thank you Sweets, Alaana, Accioslash(I loved the book mark), Akuma_river(Anything Snarry or Harry/Draco/Snape. I think you know what I like),Thanfiction(Funny story about getting your card. Hubby was a little freaked out about me getting a card from a guy. I told him who you were and then He said that I can't lose the card because he really likes the art. LOL). I love you all and hope you have a great Holiday!!

I would like to start off by saying just ignore my stress induced post this morning. Not the one about the fest, but the other one. As I said in that post my mom and dad's estate sale was today and I have a habit of displacing stress. I had a talk with Hubby and he was the one to point that out to me. I am so glad that he knows me better than I know my self sometimes.

I spent all morning in tears about the sale. The sale it self was a big cluster fuck. They took things from the house that was not to be sold, and left things that were. My mom and sister went to the action house last night to mark the things that were not to be sold, but we still had to buy back family heirlooms. We only stayed long enough to get a friend of dad's to act as our family buyer. Then my sister went later and there were more things that she had to buy back that we had missed before. Again things that they were not to take to sell. She had to buy things that that I had pulled out for my son. I will tell you seeing things that were not to be sold out for any one to touch just about killed me. I mean they took things like my dad's flag from hem he retired, and the tri-corner hat that my mom made for my son out of a cheep straw hat. They dug in the attic and the closets and they were not suppose to. They took the doll house my dad mad for us when we were little. My sister had to pay a lady $50 for a family heirloom that was marked not to sell because they sold it before she got there, and the lady acted all pissy with her. I am glad my sister was there she can be a real bitch when she wants to be.

It is done and over with now. If it is gone we are not getting it back now.

It is Saturday and I woke up at 7:30 am and could not go back to sleep. That is not normal for me. I know what it is, I am stressed. It is less than two week until Christmas and I am broke. Not my son will get fewer presents but I can't even pay my bills. I keep doing math in my head and come up with nothing. I am not sure what I am going to do. I guess I could hold out for a "Christmas miracle". Did you catch the sarcasm there. I work with a woman that has gotten so many Christmas gifts from the community that she could almost not buy any gifts for her kid. I know that she has done nothing, and people are just giving them to her, but, damn. The part of me that is bitter says that it is because her husband left her, and he is a dead beat. And people look at my family and think that because I have my husband that we are ok. My hubby has not work since he was diagnosed in Feb. of '07. He can't work. I am the only income. I make just over minimum wage. Even with my 2nd job I don't get payed until after Christmas. I just don't know what I am going to do.

Today is also the day of my parents' sale. Today I get to watch all of the things that my parents have collected over the years get sold off one peace at a time. Yeah, I am a little stressed.

Happy Thanksgiving to all of my f-list!!

Well the day is almost over. It was very different from any Thanksgiving that my family has ever had. We rented a house to have Thanksgiving at. It is wheel chair assessable so my dad could be there. That was awesome. Because we rented such a big house we invited a ton of people. I think my mom counted their were 31 people there. My dad invited his family there. I know I shouldn't say it but his family is all white trash, well most of them. His sister came up and she is cool. My mom invited a lot of her friends, including one of her "special friends". My brother in-law came. My sister invited friends from work and their families. It had the potential to being very explosive. It turned out really good. We had a lot of fun. Everyone brought something. We ended up with lots of pie and wine. I don't have a taste for wine so that was not something I had. The food was great, and one of the best parts was that the people in charge of the house do most of the clean up. My hubby got to see my dad for the first time sense the stroke, and I think it was good for him. I have been trying to tell him how bad Dad is, but he never got it until today.

The only bad thing was that my sis had her wallet stolen at the Thanksgiving party. She thinks she way know who did it. She did call the cops and report it.

I came home and to a nap. Then Hubby, Mike and I watch "Hancock". Hubby bought it today. Hubby and Mike thought it was a good buy, I am not so sure. It is the kind of movie that I would only watch once. Mike loved it, but he loves any thing with a superhero in it. I did like that it was very clean. Very little blood, and really minimal violence, and cussing.

Really a good day. Tomorrow my mom, two of my sisters and I are going out to the house to pack up what is left to be saved and not actioned off. That also has the potential to be bad. Wish me luck!!

My mom gave ne tickets to see Peter Pan tonight. It was great. I have never seen Peter Pan on stage. We have a lovely theater company. "Way off Broadway is Iowa's only professional musical theater company." LOL, but really. They hire professional actors to come and be in the plays. So local talent gets to act along side professionals.

We started to pack up the house today. Mom had a real hard time with it, so did I. I also found out that my mom had a male "friend". I am not sure how I feel about that. She said that she is taking divorce papers to my dad on Tuesday. She said that she has explained everything to him. I don't know.

*breaths a sight of relief*

My hubby got back from the Doctor. The doctor thinks that it is stress. He had to exercise more and take some more insulin. Hubby has to go back to the doctor in 4 weeks. I feel so much better.

I other news my baby sister, Mal, came back from Chicago to visit. We went out with my other sister Holly to see a local band, Jefferson County Green Band. We meet my mom there. She is in charge of the of the band's web page. It is the link. She does good work. She is also their biggest groupie. It is really kind-of scary to watch. The band was playing at the new bar. Holly didn't really like it there. It is not the place she normally goes to. We all bought a drink. I got my fave Captain Morgan and cranberry. I was a little surprised about the price of the drink. Mal thought they were cheep in caparison to Chicago. It was kind of boring at first, and Holly was trying to find a way out of there. Soon the band was playing and Mal started buying my drinks. She spent most of the night on my lap because she was cold. Mom was dancing, and tried to get us to dance. I really can't dance and I was not drunk enough to dance yet. At some point Holly made her escape to her bar of chose. Mal and I talked about Mom and the shit going on with her. Mal just found out that she might have a boyfriend. Mal was pretty pissed. She side that if he comes to Thanksgiving then she is walking out. I said that if he came Bill might punch him.
There was also a lot of texting between Holly and Mal. Some guy that Holly had took home last Sunday night was totally snubbing her. The bad thing is that she has had a crush on this guy for a long time. There were a lot of "you are fuckin hot", "I feel like crying", and "he is an ass".
Holly came back and by that time I was drunk. That led to a loud, drunken conversation in the bathroom about the "Ass". Holly said that it was his birthday. I said, so you buy him a drink, not take him home. Holly pointed out that it had been 3 years, and that it was time to "unleash the beast". There were a lot of girls in the bathroom, and in the back of my mind I was thinking this is probably not the best place to have this conversation.

I had a good time. There was drunken dancing, talking, laughing, making fun of the people there. I do not go out often, and when I do it is normally with my sister. I was pretty tipsy by the end of the night.

When I got home my hubby was up waiting for me. That was not good. I found out this morning that he had had 2 shot of Jack before I came home. With his high blood sugar and the fact that he is an ass on Jack any ways, he was a total ASS. His was really really angry and total irrational. He asked things like, "How many guys hit on you." None. "But you talked to some guys." "Yes I did. Two guys, both from the band. Tim, who is the same age as my parents, and Ed who is GAY." Ed is also like part of the family. You really can't talk to him when he is like this, but, and I say this with no since of glee, he suffered for it this morning. We had a talk about it this morning. Ya, NO MORE JACK!! He did ask his doctor about drinking, and that was a no. I wanted to be like "I could have told you that.", but you can't tell him anything. I love him anyway!!

My life has been a mess for the last month.

( Life Sucks )

Hi all!! *waves from work* My internet is down at home and I had to bring my computer to work to try to not fall to far behind.

Do you know what I miss the most? Not the story updates or even the new stories, but you! I really miss all of my friends on line. I am really sad about this. Don't laugh, I Am.

Everything is going well for me right now. My dad is doing better and better every day. I took my son to see him on Friday. That was really hard. I was harder to see my son see my dad than it was for me to see him. He put on a brave face, but there were tears in his eyes and he tried not to cry in frount of dad. He told me after that he really liked going to see grandpa.

I have also decided that I am going back to school this spring. I only have two more classed to take to finish my AA, so that I can go get my BA. I have a chance to get my BA in teaching from UNI through the ICN. For those of you who may not know UNI is one of the top teaching schools in Iowa, and it is a state school so it would be cheaper than to go through Bunivista(sp?)(also a great teaching school). If I went through UNI I would have to start in March and still take classes in the spring from the community collage. I am not sure how that works for finical aid and all that, but the person I talked to said that it can be done. Ether place I go it will be night classes so I will be able to work still.

Right now I am having a hard time thinking about leaving my job. Not because it is the greatest job in the world, but because I love working with the kids. I know that when I get a new job teaching I will still be working with kids, but I will not be teaching preschool. I really want to teach Special Ed. That is going to be real hard. I know that is what I want to do, but I guess it is the fear of the unknown.

I don't know, but I am excited about going back to school.

I joined another icon community today. Why the hell do I need to join another icon community? This one even had an application to fill out. How crazy is that? I must have passed the application because I was sent an ok to join the community. The only thing I can say for my self is that I am an icon whore. I love my icons. I have over 200 saved on my computer.

In other random news. I have started writing a Harry/Draco fic. I write during nap time. I have a note book that was lying around at the daycare that I took to write in. So far I have 2 pages hand written. That is like maybe 1 page typed. I write in short half hour sections. I am hoping that if I say that I am writing then I will keep writing. I have a goal to write a story that is at least 1000+ words with smut. I am not sure this story will have smut, but if I make it long maybe I will get to it. I don't know.

More randomness. My hubby told me the strangest thing: ( You see he had this dream. ) If you really don't what to know how crazy my hubby is don't read.

And the randomness continues. My best friend at work told me today that she is giving her two week notice. I am a little sad about this. I will miss her, but she had got to do what is best for her. And we will see each other out side of work, so we will still be friends.

Will it ever stop. My dad is getting moved out of ICU in a few days. That will make visiting him much better. ICU visiting hours are a bitch. I haven't seen him sense Sunday and I am not sure when I will see him again. I have an all day training for work on Saturday.

OK. I am done. The randomness has ended. I think. For now.

Hi y'all-

OMG It has been a LONG last 2 days. On Wednesday my sisters and I got there and got to see Dad right away. It was so hard to see him like that. He is one 4 IVs, a respirator, and a lot of monitors. They told us that he would more than likely have to have sugary to remove a bone flap from his skull to reduce the perisher on his brain. We stayed there for a while then we sat in the waiting room. We did a lot of waiting. They have computers in the waiting rooms so I got to see all of you comments. Thank you so much that was one of the brights spots in my day.

All of my sisters came, even my sister from Kansas City came up, and the one from Chicago.

At noon on Wednesday they had to rush him in for the sugary to remove the bone flap. We didn't know until we got back from lunch. The sugary went really well. They said that it would take about 3 hours, but it only took 1 1/2 hours.

He still doesn't have movement on his left side other than involuntary movement, but his right side is moving really well. He has only opened his eyes a couple of times, but they have him heavily sedated. He can communicate by squeezing your hand. And his told us he had to go to the bathroom.

All and all he is doing better.

Thank you all again.

I just got a call from my mom. My dad had a stroke while he was in surgery for his leg. He is in ICU. If you are the praying type please keep him and my family in prayer. Also I need a distraction for a few hours until my sister calls me to make plans about going up.

Thanks
Jenny

I just got a call from my mom. My dad is in the hospital with a broken leg. They think that he recked his bike. My mom and sister are on there way to Washington IA to see him. My mom told me that everything was OK, but my other sister called all in a panic because Holly (the sis riding w/ mom) left her a message in tears. *throws hand in air* I don't know what the hell is going on. I guess I will have to wait and see.

edit: I just got off the phone with my sister. My dad got transferred to the University Hospital in Iowa City. He has to get pins in his leg. That makes it worse then I thought.

Good lord I am bord. So bord that I am writing random nothing in my journal. I brought my lap top to work with me to day and I am glad because I was on my way to over time so I got a 2 hour brake. They were just going to send be home early but one of the afternoon girl has to take her dog to the vet and is going to be late so I am staying to cover for her.

Last night we had the open house for the preschool. It went well. For only having 2 days in my room to get it ready it looked really good. Wednesday my co-teacher and I were here until 8 pm just rearranging the room, and last night I was here until 7:30 pm for the open house. My son really missed me, so on Wednesday I stayed up with him and watched a movie until 10 pm. His bed time is normally 8:30, but he had just stared school. He really needed some mommy time. He is 8, but he is kind of a mama's boy. He is not one of those kids that needs his mama for every thing, but he is my baby and my only child. With every thing that has happened in his life he is really well balanced.

Well it is time to go back to work.

So I just read my last post, and for a bunch of love quotes most of them are really depressing. Must be the mood I am in.

Mom did show up to take Mike and I shopping for school supplies. She ended up buying most of them which was really cool. She couldn't take us out to dinner, but that was OK. Mike had open house at his school, so I went to talk to his teacher.

Mike has ADHD. We took him off his meds for the summer. I really don't like them. I like that they help him in school, but I don't like the side affects. I major one is that they suppress him appetite. Mike is already small for his age. He went to the doctor to day and Mike had gained 14 lbs. That is in less then 4 or 5 months. His doctor was really happy with that. He also said that sense Mike was off of his meds all summer that we should try school with out them. I had to tell his teacher this. You don't drop an ADHD kid off to a teacher and not tell them what is going on. I hope he does well.

School starts tomorrow in my town. I am pretty happy about that. I don't start teaching until after Labeo Day weekend. That is when the preschool I teach at starts. I am excited. This is my second year teaching. The first year was mostly spent trying to get my barrings. This year I can really start to bring in my thoughts and ideas about how thing should go. I also think that my co teacher from last year only wants to word part time and only teach the pre-K class in the after noon, so that leaves me as the only teacher for the morning preschool class. I really am looking forward to that.

Now I am partly angsty and partly excited. Don't mind me I am weird I know it.

A strange thing happened to me at work today. ( My mom stopped in to talk to me. )

Wow! I guess I had a lot to get off my chest.

In better news, or weirder news, people from my church said that I should read the Twilight books by Stephenie Meyer. I was really surprised. I mean these are the same people that said people should not read Harry Potter because it might lead to witch craft. So now I have to read them. I even know someone to barrow them from.

I am a little depressed right now, really pissed, and kind of happy all at the same time. My life the past month. About a month ago my mother told my sisters and I that she and my dad were getting a separation. Well yesterday she moved out of my childhood home. I have found out so much about what has been going on. It really comes down to the fact that my mother is a selfish bitch. She is also an alcoholic. My sister talked to my dad and he was is tears. My dad does not cry. Does that sound like someone who agreed to a separation. My mother left him. My sister and I were talking last night. We both agree that that we have not seen are mom in years. I am talking about the person that was there when we were kids. The woman that calls herself my mother is a nearly 50 year old woman trying to be 25, and she left my dad. My dad is a great guy. I think the reason that all of my sisters are not married is because that no man can be as good as my dad. I am not saying that my dad is not flawed because he is, but he is part of a dying breed of nice guys. I really don't even want to talk to my mom right now. She is not only making a mess on her own life she is making a mess of the lives of my family. I get stopped at church by people telling me that they saw my mother and she was so drunk that she could hardly stand up. Right now I think I hate her.

One of the nice things that come from this is that my sisters and I are closer now. I spent all day with 2 of my sisters and 2 hours talking to my other sister. And today I am going out with my sisters.